Someone special sent me this quote the other day, and I was immediately hit. Sometimes words are just so powerful.
"There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open...no artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others."
-Martha Graham
I struggle with envy and comparison, a lot. It's a daily struggle. One of the things I naively envy lately is other peoples ability to go home and not have a million goals and little things to do after their day job. I have so many creative goals and aspirations and freelance projects and ideas to grow and I feel overwhelmed and unsatisfied because I don't have time for them.
So this means I am envious of others lack of creativity.
How backwards is this?
So I strive, once again. To remember how lucky I am to have my mind and my actions and my sometimes lack-thereof. Because I offer something, even if it's just to myself. I am meaningful.
3 comments:
ugh. i get this girl. lets talk. struggle-fest with the day job over here.
In addition to being meaningful my sweet you are also loved, deeply & without judgement by me & your gramps. No one has ever said life is easy it's all in how you deal with it that makes it yours and yours alone. Here's another good quote to consider by Edith Wharton: "In spite of illness, in spite even of the archenemy sorrow, one can remain alive long past the usual date of disintegration if one is unafraid of change, insatiable in intellectual curiosity, interested in big thing and happy in small ways." I think you'll go on for a very, very long time.
I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes I wish that i could just finish all my uni work for the day and crash out on the couch without having a million things running around in my mind!
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