balancing

I have been balancing editing and real work and personal time pretty well this round, at least i think. Maybe it's too soon to say...ha! But regardless, I uploaded my first trailer of the summer last night, emailed the bride, and of course felt anxious the whole night and morning. Will she like it? It's not my best work. Should I have done this? I should have done that.

And then this morning I get the sweetest posts and tags about how much she loves it. It's better than she imagined. And she is so happy.

And I just want to curl in a ball from pleasant feelings because not only is it amazing that I was able to make someone so happy through this medium, but also I am way too hard on myself. I need to trust myself more, and trust others more who say I have an eye. The pixels and the coloring don't have to define this process. The moments I catch and mold together into a story are more important than the cost of the lens I use.

So cheers to happy things!

And now back to my real job that is kicking my butt like no other this week.

(but hey, that's a blessing in itself, i have a job! that i like!)